Summer School: Forged

Summer school will be concluding this week though the exact end day is uncertain. I struggled painfully this past week and needed a great deal of encouragement from my favorite classmate. He did an excellent job of helping me explore the causes of my sadness so close to the end of school. I recognized that I was feeling overwhelmed by the intensity of my varying emotions all summer long. It was leaving me fatigued and sorrowful; then I was wracked with guilt because I knew that others are in much more advanced summer school while I was sitting there and complaining.

However, even those struggles last week were a lesson in themselves. I was grateful that in my times of darkness my initial response was to repeat God’s truths to myself and to cry out to Him. I also learned that my heart has grown in its compassion towards others. I noticed that I literally feel the pain that other living beings are experiencing, whether they are human or animal. My Love pointed out to me that this is a gift for it allows me to pray for them in a much deeper way. Finally, when my joy does return after a time of absence, I appreciate it so much more. It illuminates my life with its presence, and I become all the more determined to hold on to it.

In my introduction to this Summer School blog series I stated that I was learning to trust Jesus as He guided me through His summer syllabus. He knew what I needed to learn the most. What did I need to learn the most? I needed to learn that I do not need to fear God’s refining fire, the operative word being “God’s.” I don’t seek out difficulty, and I certainly like an orderly, predictable life that is filled with laughter and all of my loved ones around me. I certainly do not desire to ever be parted from my Love and Best Friend again! Yet I have experienced God’s faithfulness firsthand this summer.

He is a strict teacher and a comforting counselor. He does not miss a single opportunity to either teach a new lesson or review a past one. He provides individualized instruction in general topics since He knows my unique weaknesses and tendencies. And when I lay down my pen after that final exam this week I will know that I have passed. I am a stronger student. I am a more sincere prayer warrior. I am a more empathetic listener. I am more appreciative of the little blessings, more patient in the waiting, and slower to speak my opinion. I know that I have been forged in God’s refining fire and I will be all the more radiant as I walk down the aisle to meet my husband who went through the fire with me.

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Aloha! This blog is a window into the active mind of a wife, mother, woman and individual. I may be busy every moment of every day, but I still have time to think. Many seasons have blossomed and faded within my life, and this blog has endured through all of them. It is safe to say that my writing has matured because of them. I hope that you will be inspired to think in fresh ways as you read my writing. To Jesus be all the glory.
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