Serenity

There’s a family of Canadian geese that have residence in the lake behind our home. I never weary of watching them or they me, for that matter! When I’m hanging up laundry the entire goose clan glides over to float and gaze. It makes me smile. I am also intrigued by the formation of the goose family when they are swimming: parent leading, offspring in a row, parent bringing up the rear. And they swim calmly to and from their destination. There is serenity in the order.

Our little ones are not quite as compliant as those goslings when it comes to routine in and out of the house. We frequently meet with resistance as we instruct them in etiquette and attitude. But they do know who their authority figures are and, even more importantly, they are secure enough in their relationship with us to be authentic. Their emotions are never hidden from us: anger, jubilation, fear, hurt, gratitude…whatever they are feeling overflows unashamedly. And the questions they pose! Those come with zero filter. If they don’t know or understand something, they simply ask. If they would like something, they ask. If they can’t remember, they ask. There is serenity in authentic relationship.

And it always brings me back to Jesus. I realize that I hide many of my true feelings from Him. When anxiety overpowers, I try to reason with it, fight it, or ignore it on my own rather than simply talking it all out with Jesus. I hesitate to bring requests to Him because they either seem too insignificant or too impossible; if I don’t understand something I wrestle with it on my own rather than coming to Him for clarity. But as I wait and wait and wait on this Baby I am coming to the end of myself and God is prompting me to let go of myself and go deeper with Him. He reminds me that I can calmly follow Him and be raw at the same time. He wants me to acknowledge that He knows the true me; I don’t have to hide from Him. There is serenity in letting go.

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Aloha! This blog is a window into the active mind of a wife, mother, woman and individual. I may be busy every moment of every day, but I still have time to think. Many seasons have blossomed and faded within my life, and this blog has endured through all of them. It is safe to say that my writing has matured because of them. I hope that you will be inspired to think in fresh ways as you read my writing. To Jesus be all the glory.
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4 Responses to Serenity

  1. Julie Petz says:

    We sang a beautiful hymn in church on Sunday called “I must Tell Jesus.” I came home and found the song in my hymnal and have been working on learning it. Do you know the song? These are the lyrics (I think they are quite fitting for the last paragraph in your post):

    I must tell Jesus all of my trials,
    I cannot bear these burdens alone;
    In my distress He kindly will help me,
    He ever loves and cares for His own.

    Refrain:
    I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
    I cannot bear my burdens alone;
    I must tell Jesus! I must tell Jesus!
    Jesus can help me, Jesus alone.

    I must tell Jesus all of my troubles,
    He is a kind, compassionate Friend;
    If I but ask Him He will deliver,
    Make of my troubles quickly an end.

    Tempted and tried I need a great Savior,
    One who can help my burdens to bear;
    I must tell Jesus, I must tell Jesus:
    He all my cares and sorrows will share.

    What must I do when worldliness calls me?
    What must I do when tempted to sin?
    I must tell Jesus, and He will help me
    Over the world the vict’ry to win.

    ***Your honesty and transparency is inspiring, Shelby! Thank you for sharing

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    • wordvessel says:

      This is a beautiful hymn and it does apply so well. I hadn’t made the connection so thank you for pointing it out. And thank you for your encouragement too! ❤️

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  2. God knows our every thought and every little thing about us. He loves us through and through…what a joy and comfort to know that we can just be ourselves!

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